Be Still

Howdy, folks! I just looked at the calendar, and it’s been six weeks since I posted…how in the world?! I would love to say that it’s been so long because I’ve been super active, but quite the opposite is true. I’ve had an issue going on with my knee, so I’ve spent a lot of time sitting, resting, and healing. And it has taken a lot more effort to complete daily tasks (or attempt to) than usual. Being impaired has been frustrating at times, but the whole experience has really opened my eyes to how much about my physical health I have taken for granted. Here’s a list of some of the mama tasks that I never fully appreciated being able to do before:

• Being able to run (or jog lol) and chase my little girl
• Getting down to play in the floor and being able to get back up easily and without help
• Cleaning my floors without being in pain the whole next day
• Just plain walking through the house, without a crutch, a limp, or feeling pain or discomfort with every step
• Being able to carry my toddler while walking
• Alternating feet to go up and down steps
• Stretching my legs out completely flat
• Skipping
• Jumping
• Climbing a ladder
• Walking outside without feeling wobbly
• And all the other everyday movements that knees take part in!

I didn’t share this list to have a pity party, but to say how much I appreciate the fact that I have normally been able to do all of these things without any trouble and without even thinking about them. And I am thankful to already be able to do some of them again. My ailment is improving; I expect to be back to normal in the near future, and I thank the Lord for His help and healing. Without Him, I wouldn’t be able to take a single step!

This whole ordeal with my knee is not something I would have signed up for, but that’s why I’m not in charge. Beyond giving me an increased gratitude for physical strength, God knows exactly what will make me grow closer to Him, what will make me strong enough to do the work He has in store for me, and what will fill me with more of His love. He knows when I need to reflect on how I’m living my life and let Him fix things in my heart. I just have to trust Him and follow His direction.